Shipped Out

today i finally brought myself to sending the package of medical information to the RE. i had no choice as our appointment is in less than a week and i started getting calls from their office. the doctor reviews all of the information beforehand to get a clearer picture. i am greatful that they are thorough...still i couldn't help but think "am i jumping the gun?" as i answered their questionaire.

there are so many couples out there with worse stories and who have waited much longer...am i wasting this doctor's time? am i taking the appointment of someone in need more than i? am i going to get laughed at once again (not literally, but it still feels like it when people say that "you are fine" when i feel in my heart of hearts that there is a problem)?

since i may have ovulated this week my fears may not be justified, but i still have no real confirmation since my BBT chart does not recognize that i have ovulated. my CM isn't what it should be for a fertile time in a normal woman's cycle. i have felt dull pain for the last few days on my left side now, similar to what i felt last cycle before enduring excrutiating pain for two days and all the while NOT getting pregnant.

i don't know what any of this means and i hope i get the answers that i am looking for...any solid answer really. some proof that i am not crazy here.